quixotism | (no subject)

I can't with you and this and them and and and

WHAT ABOUT the first time Loki openly shows his affection...

as much as Loki openly shows affection at all...

They called it Indra, after the Indian God of Thunder. The Kaiju was massive and dealt out plenty of electric shocks. They had two Jaegers there to deal with the threat. One of them was Starstruck Wolf, Jim and Loki's Jaeger. With his arm in a sling, Loki said nothing, refused to see Jim and flat out ignored him. He was the handicap once more.

The battle, though won, was a catastrophe. Three pilots were in the med bay, catatonic. Loki stepped into the stark white room, the cleanest place in the base and surveyed the scene. Chekov and Sulu were breathing quietly.

Spock was next to him, his brown eyes dark with shock. How would it feel to see a part of you ripped out?

Loki didn't know. He wished he did. With a terse command, he sent Spock away.

There was no blue in Jim's eyes, no smile, nothing, just a shell...

Loki stayed there for a week. He ignored his brother, ignored everything the way he ignored Jim, the way he shouldn't when he was chockful of guilty and resentment, jealous of Jim and Spock, scared that this was the end...

Loki can't tell which end he preferred anymore.

When Jim opened his eyes, Loki told him softly, "You are forbidden to leave me."

Jim simply laughed with his blue eyes.

oh god my heart

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that's not nice

you asked

but

but???

I EXPECTED SOMETHING FLUFFIER

this is better

you owe me fic too

kay

Now write me their first kiss :>

Jim wished he could say he saw it coming, but with Loki, he never seems to see anything coming, so it was a moot point altogether.

So when Loki dragged him off after speaking to Spock (seriously, what is it with him and Spock? So Spock and he were in the Drift a couple of times, big deal) and slammed him so hard against the wall that Jim saw stars. The next thing Jim saw was Loki's eyes, boring holes in him.

"What the fuck?" Jim said eloquently.

"I told you," Loki hissed, "You are not allowed to leave me."

"I didn't!" Jim protested for some reason.

"You did," Loki said, crowding in his space.

"So what if I spoke to Spock" Jim replied, feeling defensive, "Besides, if you talked to me more we wouldn't--,"

Without a word, Loki grabbed him by the collar and kissed him hard. And Jim forgot everything else.

Awww issues ♥ jealousy's a bitch

yeppp

Okay leave me a couple prompts I'll see what I can do when I get home :3

yayyy

I did actually mean for you to leave me prompts!!

HOW ABOUT THE ONE I ASKED A WHILE AGO

oh I guess Loki and Jim's first Drift.

I WANTED YOU TO WRITE THAT tHOUGH

I'll poke at the one you asked a while ago though

damn you

ilu

run, run, run, run across the deck, watch them pull your parents out of the hull, watch it all, watch them pet your hair, watch them --

-- turn away from you, turn the page over your scores, turn away with wide shoulders, their eyes are sad, wary, judging, judging, they always judge --

-- the marks on your neck, the bruises on your face, adrenaline pumping through your veins, they can't stand your face --

-- but you found someone who can.

"James," Loki said from behind Thor, and Jim frowned at the way his partner so easily ignored the way Thor lit up like a fucking puppy. There was an expression on Loki's face he'd never seen before; something about it that just screamed 'get the fuck away from me' despite the smile curving his lips.

"Hey Loki," Jim said, grinned and waved, "I was just talking to your brother--"

"We are not brothers." The venom dripping from his tongue was practically palpable and Jim couldn't help but wince at the way that bright smile dropped off Thor's face.

"Loki," and that low voice suddenly seemed so much more dangerous, not a cheerful bellow at all, "Don't you dare--"

Loki, for his part, talked over Thor as if he could not hear or see him at all. "There is training to had," he said, with that same flat smile that made Jim want to shake him until it slipped. No wonder he was so careful whenever they were linked up.

Looking uncertainly between Thor and Loki, Jim shrugged, "Uh, right," he said as he walked across the hallway. "Are you sure--"

"And I'm sure Mr. Spock had said something about a chess game he expected you to be present for," Loki went on. Jim was getting really tired of no-one but Loki getting able to finish a sentence. And he knew something was really wrong, clearly, as Loki never chose to speak about Spock without what he considered a damn good reason, which a nonexistent chess game was not.

"Loki," Thor tried again, stepping closer; Loki slid backwards casually.

"Right!" Jim said, clapping his hands to diffuse what tension he could. "Training! I'll see you around, Thor, yeah?" And he slung an arm around Loki's shoulders, herding him down the hallway. "We don't have a training session scheduled," he said lightly, once they were a decent distance away, "And Spock doesn't tell you about our games."

Loki didn't reply.

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